Real and Fake

Our perception of what is real and what is fake changes with time it doesn't necessarily mean that what i percieved as real three months ago can no longer be real at my present understanding. It was real based on my mind set, my physiological well being and what the general vibe is around me.

To a Good Man

My friend and older brother Samer,
How are you? I hope that you are doing fine and feeling comfortable. How is your family. I hope that life is treating you well.

It has been a very long time since I last met you or spoke to you and I want you to know that I have never forgotten about you. First I would like to tell that I am doing fine. I am doing what I have to do to survive in this world and make a place for my self. I have graduated in May 2007 and found a job in California after that. I have been living and working there for more than three years.

So many things have happened since I left Syria and so many changes have happened. What keeps me going are people like you who were there to support me and love me when I had not family to do that.

I want you to know that I remember very vividly how kind and loving you were to me. I remember how you used to sit and listen to me when I felt like no one in this world cared about me. You made me feel like I was significant. I enjoyed listening to your advice. Most importantly you wiped away some of my tears and you gave me a shoulder to cry on.

I want you that I have never forgotten and will never forget. I hope the days will join us again in joy.

I Wish I Can Sore

I wish I can tell you that you cause me misery. Even though I love you, you never let me spread my wings and fly. I feel like I need to hurt you if doing what I love hurts you. I feel the need to spread my wings and fly. This is my life. Don't tell me how to live it. Love me the way I am. Be happy for me for the things I love. Why do you feel the need to control me? You are slowing me down. Time is passing by. I will only live once. Don't make me decide between you and doing what I love .

A Letter to my Sister

The main purpose in life is to be enjoyed. We will never be happy if we do not pursue what we love. I accept the fact that you make choices for your own happiness. I am just your helping you along the way to give you comfort and support. I will be there for you like I always was and you do not need to feel like you need hide things from me. You also don't need to feel like you have to tell me everything. When you need space I will back away and give it to you. We all have missing parts in our souls. Sometimes it takes personal choices to find these parts. Sometimes we prefer taking our journeys alone and good friends will always be there when we need someone to fall back on.

a letter to my love

i really do love you hun and i do care about you. i do not want to be with anyone else other than you. you have been there through thick and thin in the past few years and stood by me. i would never abandon you. my love for you will always come first. i know there are lots of things that i want to do for you. i wish i can truly express how i feel about you. no one will ever come before you. you will always be first i promise you that. you are my lady and i mean it with all of my existence. sometimes i get blinded by the things that i want in this world and i forget about the person who truly loves me who wants some of my attention.

you may ask me why i like to be alone sometimes. hun i have been through so much trauma growing up and sometimes i need to be alone to think about the past. i need solitude because it helps in healing some of the pains inside of me. but every breath i take i breath your love with it. you are in my every thought every day. even when i am sad and want to be alone to heal i think about you.

thank you for all the love. thank you for putting up with me all this time. i really do love you. i want to make you happy. we will find a way no matter what.

yours forever,
issam

Communication Technology

Not in the very far past, when a one traveled to a different part of the earth, it took days, weeks or even months for that person to communicate with their friends and family back home. The forms of communication were limited and not available to everyone.

Today, you can stay in touch with whom ever you want in an instant. Think about this for a minute. You can instantly call your mother in San Francisco and tell you her that you've arrived in Sao Paolo. You can have a live video conversation with your girlfriend from any two different points on earth via Skype. Hundreds of friends have access to your thoughts and the music you are listening to through Facebook. You can read any newspaper  from anyplace on the planet on your iPhone while you are waiting for your to be served at a restaurant.

The things on my mind

One day, I will be able to tell the world what's really on my mind. I hope that my words can go very far. But I feel stuck right now. But one day, I won't be stuck anymore. All my life I felt that this 'one day' will come when I can write volumes about about our generation and how we thought to the generations that will come thousands of years from now.

It saddens me that I won't be there to talk to them. I wish I can be there to find out about their cultures, languages, inventions, and accomplishments. I wonder if they would discover life somewhere else and if they would colonize other planets. I can't wait to amazed.